My Wish For The World

by Erin Honor

So I happen to have a youtube channel. Yup. I’m one of those people.

Honestly, I love it. I really do. As I mentioned in my previous post, I love the internet and all that it has to offer. I love expressing myself and speaking my mind and sharing my thoughts and opinions with the world.

That being said, youtube can be a bit flat… And a bit difficult.

Basically, like most things in my life, I have no clue what I am doing. At this point, I am posting beauty videos such as makeup tutorials, hauls, and the odd fashion video. Am I in any way an authority on any of these topics? No, of course not. If I was, I would be doing this stuff as a job instead of a hobby. I’m just having fun and trying to push myself out of my comfort zone by putting myself out there to be judged and criticized. It’s terrifying and horrible and wonderful and invigorating all at the same time.

But my youtube channel (which I will link here) is not the topic of this post. It is merely the inspiration.

The other day, I posted a tag video (if you don’t know what a tag video is, it is basically a survey that is answered in video form) called The My Wishes Tag. This was created by a very popular (and unfairly beautiful) youtuber named Marzia a couple of weeks ago. Upon watching the video, I fell in love with the idea and the question and knew that I had to do it, even though I knew that it wouldn’t exactly get me any views.

Now, the footage that I took actually lasted so long that I actually ran out of room on my camera’s memory card (whoops). I have a habit of going on and on about what is going on in my mind. I chalk this up to the fact that I don’t actual have any personal contact with people on a regular basis, so when I get the opportunity to speak… I just word vomit everywhere.

Since I couldn’t exactly put up an hour long video (yes, that’s how much footage I had), I had to cut out quite a lot of content to fit the video into a nice little 12 minute long package.

In the video, there was actually one question in particular that had me going on the longest.

What do you wish you could change about the world?

It’s kind of a funny questions, so simple and so powerful all at once.

I think the immediate response to this question would be similar for most people. “I wish that people would stop being evil.” “I wish crime wouldn’t exist.” “I wish we would stop destroying the environment.” … The list goes on.

Correct me if I am wrong here, but I feel that most people’s response to this question would be mostly focused on how seemingly terrible mankind is. How flawed, how corrupt. How the bad in the world completely overshadows the good.

But why?

I mean, here’s the thing. When you take a step back, when you remove the evening news reports, the bold and shocking headlines, and that dude who cursed at you this morning after almost hitting you with his car as you were crossing the street… Is it really all that bad?

I think that it is almost human nature at this point to focus more on the bad than the good. It makes sense. I mean, think about it. If you have a really good day, but then you lose your wallet; how are you going to remember that day? Are you going to recall how you made the perfect cup of coffee that morning, or how the sunset painted the sky with the most breathtaking pinks and blues that you have ever seen? Probably not. You are probably going to look at that day bitterly because of the one speck of bad. That one fleeting moment in a 24 hour period.

I just find it that we live in a world now where not only is it rare and difficult to take a step back and view the planet that we live on with love and amazement… It is almost discouraged to do so.

Think about it, how often do you hear someone say in a casual setting that they hate people? Seriously. Not only are people constantly saying that they hate people, but it is so commonplace that there are actual numerous clothing items in mass production with this bitter sentence painted across them!

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(this is in no way meant to be a dig at Jac Vanek by the way. She is wonderful and I own a ton of her clothing… I’m just making a point.)

I just… It perplexes me as to how and when hating everyone and everything became the cool thing to do.

Listen, I’m not the most positive person. In fact, I am the complete opposite. I has a deep rooted hatred for myself and for my existence… But I don’t want it to be like that. I’m working on it, I’m trying. I also have the tendency to take one bad situation and snowball into a huge, long-winded mental dramatization of events that could (but most likely won’t) occur as a result.

That being said, I really do love people and I really do love the world… And in today’s world, that makes me weird.

Seriously, it’s insane. Someone could go on about how they hate people in a public setting and not only would no one bat an eye, most would agree. Now turn that situation around and think about a person in a public setting going on about what a wonderful world it is and how much they love everyone… They would most likely receive eye rolls, raised eyebrows, and disdainful thought towards them. What’s up with this weirdo?” What’s got them so damn happy? Must be nice to not have to live in the real world. They don’t know what it’s like to have to deal with…

See? It’s warped and disturbing and sad.

In the video, I kind of skim over this part and jump into the weird paradigm of the world that we live in. From the moment we are born, we have a certain idea of how life should go drilled into us. Go to school, get good grades so you can get into a good college, get a degree that will be valuable in landing you a well paying job, work 9-5 until retirement.

To me, this whole process just sounds like a nightmare.

I may sound naive or immature, and I am aware of that… But just the idea of putting al of my energy into earring a good income in a job that I am not passionate about just so I can live in a decent house and work every day for almost my entire life just sounds like a nightmare. I want to travel and meet people and express myself and take in all that this unbelievably amazing planet that we live on has to offer.

Here’s the deal. Whether you like it or not, we live in a really cool world. We live on a planet that exists among many planets, yet this is the only one that can sustain life. We have this force of gravity that keeps us planted on the ground, yet we can transcend that force and fly in the sky and travel due to the amazing workings of the human mind. We live on a planet that is, in itself, completely self-sustainable. We have millions of creatures that inhabit this place, ourselves included. We have eyes that can process light reflecting off of different surfaces and process it as a whole spectrum of breathtaking colors. We have seasons. We have hot and sticky summer air. We have the cool, crisp, and clean bite of the fall.

I don’t know, I could go on forever.

You know how little kids are excited by the most seemingly simple and non-remarkable things? A child will look up at the sky, see the shape of a horse in the clouds, and squeal with excitement. A child will see a butterfly flutter past them and it will make their days.

At what point do we lose this? When does the sunset stop taking our breath away. When do we stop looking at the world with awe and amazement? When do we stop finding the remarkable in the unremarkable? When do we stop really living instead of just going through the motions?

So my greatest wish for the world?

I wish that we could all see the world through the eyes of a child.